It's a new year...Whoo Hoo!

With the new year comes all of the promise of leaving all of the bullshit from the past year behind, bad habits turn good, and our interest in being the new improved new year (fill in blank...2011) version of ourselves is peaked.  My old and new year however don't seem all that different.  I've renewed my interest in myself by embarking on the old exercise, sleep, read, explore more routine, while also eating, gossiping, and wasting less plan...All destined to improve and better the old me.  Will I succeed?  I'd like to think so.  My old age has made me more contemplative about all of the time, things, and energy I waste...I am quite talented at distracting myself from my goals and I'd like to believe that I can actually succeed with the newfound recognition of my talent exposed. 

The physical improvement goals are greatly aided by looking at old and current pictures of myself.  When did I become that overgrown woman?  It took years of diligent practice but by comparison I find a determination to take the transformation a bit more seriously and to make quicker time of the loss.  I don't expect to lose heaps of weight in days but I also don't want to spend twenty years taking off what it took twenty years to put on...While I don't watch The Biggest Loser, I know that these people lose massive amounts of weight in the span of a TV show...but I see it's also possible to do so in a real life, somewhat less intense manner and still have it be significant.

The social improvement goals are another story...sometimes it's a matter of just letting things go.  So often I find myself almost chided into bad behavior or response and other times, I myself am guilty of knowingly pushing buttons.  Either way, the question is "to what end?".  It's not always, almost never, important to be right, to point out others flaws or shortcomings, to belittle, or to not listen.  I'm guilty of all these behaviors, and I often feel guilty for it too.  Why waste the energy on either?  Sometimes just keeping your mouth shut is the simplest, kindest, best choice.  I hope to make good choices in my dealings with others this year on...

So there you have it...my well planned steps towards a new improved 2011 version of the old damned 2010 version of myself...We'll see how she fares when we once again find ourselves ringing in a new year in just 361 days!...